once again i feel that my privacy has been violated, and this time i am really taking actions.
i dont usually talk to people about my feelings, definitely not to my parents and family members. i dont want them to know me beyond the surface. i feel naked if everything about me is known, and since we are already physically so close, i need to establish an emotional distance to make myself feel secured. just like combining two atoms, there is an optimal distance which best accomodates both attractive and repulsive forces, and the outcome is the most desirable energy state ie zero potential energy. you get the idea.
yet still, i occasionally write about my feelings and things i did on my xanga. there are things that i dont feel like letting my family know but do my friends, and a lot of times i write them in here. naturally i dont want my family to find out about my xanga. of course my obnoxious brother finds out, and checks it regularly. not only does he check it, he also invites my parents to read it, and then proudly reports back to me. dude, thanks for telling me that i have no privacy. and this has already happened more than once. this time i am really going to do something as i am planning to write more personally in the future.
so i am creating a new account. no, not the one i created in february and then neglected as few of you might know. this one is for real, and you probably wont be able to guess the name. close friends of mine shall be notified of the new name shortly; otherwise you can leave me a message and i will reply. by no means shall mr bryan tsui find out my new site. i will stop updating mingming1437 (what a sad thought) but may come back one day if i think that the unwelcomed one stops spying.
meanwhile, goodbye and take care. | 
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